Don't Wanna Come Down by Trey Songz

>It's been sometime...and I know it may feel like I'm neglecting yall, but its not even like that. I went back to school and that was alot all in itself. Been here for exactly a week...kinda lovin...rooming with 5 of the hottest bitches attending QU...so you already know how we gets down...but yea... I'm supposed to be doing homework, but I can't seem to finish it...like aint that a shame...but hey, I always get my shyt done...
On another note, I think Imma make my move over to the other team...lol yea funny, but it'll never happen, its just that niggas stay irkin me. Like come on, if you're gonna buy me a phone and tell me you're gonna pay the bill then I'm gonna believe thats what you're gonna do. But when you tell me you went and bought some sneakers and whateva else an didn't pay the bill there is a problem. Now yall know how much I love my phone and how much I can't live without it. Like I don't understand. I really don't. Like I really should've listened to my mom when she said that I don't need a boyfriend...shyt it's harder to have one than it is not to have one... and that is def not a good thing... I have some rethinking to do...

Color Me Pink by Teyana Taylor

It has truly been a while... a few months to be exact... what can I say? A lot has happened that has been keeping me occupied, but hopefully, I'm here to stay. I mean since it's been so long, where do I start?

Well in a little over a week I will be returning to QU... a very bittersweet feeling... I mean I no longer wanna stay home (wanna be back "on my own") but at the same time who wants to go somewhere we're you're getting screwed (tuition and everything else dealing with QU), so at this point I don't know. And on top of that, I have to go shopping for mad stuff... ughh, still have to get my books... school is too expensive... I just wish money fell out of the sky (of course just for me) and all of my financial problems just vanished... ahhh wouldn't that be just grand...

On another note... my summer, was okay to say the least... I worked... made a few new friends chilled with the fam... went to Atlantic City for a few days... went to Six Flags... slept...

ate up a storm... threw a bbq... got another tat... got fired from work (ha ha ha I don't know if thats the case just yet)... oh and I cut my hair... yup I cut it...

The story of how that came about is, well my brother mentioned it one day and then we got to talking about it. At first I was a little skeptical about it because I wasn't sure of how I would look, altho I was consistently cutting my hair in other ways; for a few days I had on side shaved off like Kelis, then a few days l had my sister shave the other side off and I officially rocked a mohawk. Then one day I woke up and decided I was gonna cut it. (July 31, 2009 to be exact) Now 2 weeks later, I cut it again... I'm kinda feelin this short(er) hair... and not to mention the guys are lovin it... I can't tell you how many guys tried to talk to me now that my hair is short... crazy I know... And whats crazy is that I said I wasn't gonna cut it anymore... well that was until I noticed how good I look with damn near no hair...lol ha ha ha...

It's a bit early... and I'm not totally sure why I am up, but just had to show yall that I havent forgotten about ya... bbs

<3>

Intuition by Keri Hilson

I don't know how to feel right now... iz 12:15 AM.... I have to get up and get ready for work in a few hours and I'm still not tired.... SMH... 

Today was a cool day, spent some time with my family, whom I don't get to see much, and of course you know I had a few drinks.... LMAO... but yea...for some reason I'm reason I'm fstow (feeling some type of way, for you guys who don't know).... I mean it can just be the liquor or maybe not... pero yo no se... (Yea I know I switched to spanish... I do that sometimes...)

Maybe I'll finish lata...maybe not....who knows....

Smile by 112

A few days have passed since I last made a  post... kinda wanted it to settle so that when I came back I would actually have something to write about...

Sitting outside in my front yard, listening to music, just thinking about alot...

My relationship is one of the many things plaguing my mind on this beautiful, Thursday afternoon and I don't mean to use "plague" in a bad way... For the most part, I am happy with Terrance... I mean I know I have had a bad track record with the guys I've dated in the past (they were all losers), but I feel (and I hope) he is different... I mean our whole relationship started differently... I mean I knew once we started talking I was gonna like him (and that was bad because I was still in a relationship when I met him). But I mean, we started off as friends for the most part and he was there for me when I broke up with my ex... and although we flirted back and forth, we were still friends first... Now going on 5 months later, he and I are together (been dating for almost 2 months) and yeah we've had bumps in the road already, partially due to the fact that I am afraid of getting hurt again and partially due to the fact that all guys are dumb, so they are just subconsciously gonna do dumb shit and not think its dumb until brought to their attention (no offense to my male readers, just speaking the truth). Eh... more or less I am just waiting to see how this summer turns out... only time will tell...

On another note, I have come to the decision that I'm gonna (or at least I wanna) let my hair grow until my birthday... So that's 9 months and 16 days of not cutting my hair unless it's a trim...mhm I don't know how that's gonna turn out. I first cut it short before my 16th birthday (March 2005). I let it grow out and then cut it again when I graduated high school (June 2007).  I let it grow once more and then cut it for BSU's fashion show, and for the most part it has been short ever since. I feel like I need a change... What do you think?...

Currently drinking an amaretto sour and yes it is now only 4PM... I think the summer has definitely turned me into a lush... I mean Macy's ain't tryna give no one hours, and no one else is hiring, so I mean what else is there to do? Sleep, watch tv (which is something I don't really do) and sit outside and play with my dog... I mean can't do much else due to the fact that funds are low... SMH...

My drug

My addcition

both my high and low

I'm going through withdrawal

I want you, 

no I need you.

I'm shaking without you

I'm empty without you

I need you to make me feel good.

I need the high only you can give

the feeling shooting through my veins, 

through my blood

straight to my heart...

I gotta kick this bad habit

but only you can make me feel this good.

I can't let you go

I don't wanna let you go

as bad as you are for me

I still need you...

I can never wait to get my next fix

I'll do anything for my next fix, 

I only want what is it that you're selling...

rehab can't cure this addiction; this problem

neither will going cold turkey.

We're meant to be together

I am supposed to have you...

Just a lil something I wrote...  But until next time...

New Beginning...

This is my first blog, thus this is my first entry, so I'm not really sure what to say... All I know is that this summer is promised to be exciting... so who knows... Stay tuned... <3