A few days have passed since I last made a post... kinda wanted it to settle so that when I came back I would actually have something to write about...
Sitting outside in my front yard, listening to music, just thinking about alot...
My relationship is one of the many things plaguing my mind on this beautiful, Thursday afternoon and I don't mean to use "plague" in a bad way... For the most part, I am happy with Terrance... I mean I know I have had a bad track record with the guys I've dated in the past (they were all losers), but I feel (and I hope) he is different... I mean our whole relationship started differently... I mean I knew once we started talking I was gonna like him (and that was bad because I was still in a relationship when I met him). But I mean, we started off as friends for the most part and he was there for me when I broke up with my ex... and although we flirted back and forth, we were still friends first... Now going on 5 months later, he and I are together (been dating for almost 2 months) and yeah we've had bumps in the road already, partially due to the fact that I am afraid of getting hurt again and partially due to the fact that all guys are dumb, so they are just subconsciously gonna do dumb shit and not think its dumb until brought to their attention (no offense to my male readers, just speaking the truth). Eh... more or less I am just waiting to see how this summer turns out... only time will tell...
On another note, I have come to the decision that I'm gonna (or at least I wanna) let my hair grow until my birthday... So that's 9 months and 16 days of not cutting my hair unless it's a trim...mhm I don't know how that's gonna turn out. I first cut it short before my 16th birthday (March 2005). I let it grow out and then cut it again when I graduated high school (June 2007). I let it grow once more and then cut it for BSU's fashion show, and for the most part it has been short ever since. I feel like I need a change... What do you think?...
Currently drinking an amaretto sour and yes it is now only 4PM... I think the summer has definitely turned me into a lush... I mean Macy's ain't tryna give no one hours, and no one else is hiring, so I mean what else is there to do? Sleep, watch tv (which is something I don't really do) and sit outside and play with my dog... I mean can't do much else due to the fact that funds are low... SMH...
My drug
My addcition
both my high and low
I'm going through withdrawal
I want you,
no I need you.
I'm shaking without you
I'm empty without you
I need you to make me feel good.
I need the high only you can give
the feeling shooting through my veins,
through my blood
straight to my heart...
I gotta kick this bad habit
but only you can make me feel this good.
I can't let you go
I don't wanna let you go
as bad as you are for me
I still need you...
I can never wait to get my next fix
I'll do anything for my next fix,
I only want what is it that you're selling...
rehab can't cure this addiction; this problem
neither will going cold turkey.
We're meant to be together
I am supposed to have you...
Just a lil something I wrote... But until next time...
